Hormones...

At the tail end of my period, now. It was light this time around - I wonder if it is stress-related.

I wonder what things in my body are hormone related. I've never had PMS (I guess sometimes, but not characteristically), and my sex drive never rose during my period as many women report. If anything, Ninja always seemed to be keen on me while I happened to be mensturating, which was a funny thing. But I've always felt relatively steady emotionally, despite whatever cycles actually exist.

My libido has, in my time with Ninja, been in a high gear. Always. Was that related to hormones? What was I like before him? I guess. I masturbated often, looked at some porn, etc. etc. It was different when he came along, though. Is there some connection that is made with another person of the opposite sex? I should look these things up.

Currently, I don't think about sex so much. It still crops up, but it's too fresh to really think about. Instead, I keep busy. This is a part of the healing process I suppose. Stress affects everything, the bitch that it is. And I try to ignore things in retaliation, and hope they will turn out okay somehow.