Love's Residue

Being busy is a great distraction, but there are quiet times where my mind opens up and I think, analyze, and mourn.

He lied to me, but I loved him. He cheated on me, and I still wanted to love him. Now he has abruptly decided to not speak to me, and I have no idea why, and I still want to love him.

Our relationship was not healthy, and would not have lasted as it was - I see it now. But I miss my friend. I miss the security I felt. I miss the promise that he would always be there for me, and that I could always call him. I miss him wanting me, craving me, touching me, kissing me.

It's dead, now. I will miss the memories and the illusion it was. I will get over it. I will guard my heart and not give away my secrets anymore.

It's been three weeks, and it feels like yesterday.