Refreshed

Whew, guys.

A lot has happened in the past few days. Many conversations, much introspection, some healthy flirting. I feel completely renewed! I have been rockin' my job, eating some great food, talking with fabulous people.

This weekend I'm going to go to the mall with London and get some new fashions - Ninja was always very picky so I wouldn't often deviate from my normal plain style. But I feel like being adventurous.

I've been learning how to be flirty again, particularly with some of the fine fellows that come into the chocolate store I work at. I have to say it's pretty fun! I get along so well with men; I'd forgotten that. But I enjoy their company and I enjoy their way of thinking, with or without some saucy remarks. Per my modest wishes, I have been granted a few nice compliments. It has made me feel like, maybe, some day, someone will really want me again.

Sex is on the brain again, twofold. I won't pursue any man quite yet, but I ache for touch and passion. I feel that magnetism sometimes, if I stand near. I remember what it truly feels like, sexual energy. It is a beautiful, raw thing.

Transferring that to my masturbation habit, oh damn. My orgasms have been ridiculous. The moments creeping up to climax make me moan audibly, and the peak itself is phenomenal. I don't know why, particularly, but I don't mind one bit. I fantasize as I normally have... but everything is electrified. I love masturbating. Maybe one day I will find a partner I could climax with. That would possibly turn me into a sex addict, though. My two favourite things.

Anyway, this is my state of being.