Come with Me..... oh wait.

A week or so ago, I layed down in bed with Ninja. Finals were wearing me out, and I seem to enjoy taking naps when I can. Our clothes were in a pile on the floor, along with all the other piles of clothes we've got carelessly strewn about our room. I take comfort in the fact that we always lay in the nude; it is the greatest feeling to be curled up against his warm flesh. He seems to be a furnace, and I am always cold. In his kindness, he lets me put my ice-cube toes all over him until they're warm again. Haha.

Often before we fall asleep, he will place his hands on my pelvic bones, applying pressure. He pulls on my skin, and pushes with his hips. The effect is instant - my legs part and his hands find their way there.

He slipped his erection inside me and played with my clit. Differently, though, this time, he brought my hands there as well. "I want to cum with you," he said. A mixture of arousal and anxiety filled me. "I would love to do that," I replied.

I tried to get into a groove, but laying with another person is so much different than normal masturbation. My body was overrun with the sensation of his cock slowly moving inside me, and my fingers pulling up at my clit. I couldn't figure out what to pay attention to, what would bring me to an orgasm.

I've only cum twice in front of him, and both times I was consumed with embarassment. Why? I don't know. But it's all I dream of. He is what gets me off; I replay our lovemaking time and time again in the privacy of our bed. Why can't I do it in real life? I don't know. The physical sensations are different, and I am confused by them. I don't know how to read them, how to react, what will make me hotter.

But I wanted to try. "It will take a while," I warned him meekly. He smiled and said we had all day.

Comforted, I pulled up at my labia, exposing my clit, rolling it around and stimulating myself. I felt the tugging down from his cock in my pussy, and he ran his hands across my body.

I was getting into it, slowly, feeling my way. My pussy was so swollen from arousal that it was difficult for me. But he was behind me, on my side, touching me, and it was heavenly.

And then he came.

Bummer.

I got upset that I couldn't perform, but he corrected me and apologized for cumming, that he was supposed to last longer.

I just wish it would go right. I'm so terribly embarassed when I know I shouldn't be. Ridiculous.